Their lives take such strange shapes, but how together they appear from above

Did you ever sort of want to write someone a really threatening letter –  the kind where you tell them you want to gouge out their eyeballs with spoons and then feed them to them, or something in that similar over-the-top mobster-type disgusting vein?  Damn, do I wish I could write a couple of those letters, but I don’t have the balls, I don’t want to deal with the fallout.  Also if you write those to customers, even customers who yell at you for their own stupidity and then hang up on you, you probably get fired.  So I am holding it in, ignoring the phone this afternoon, trying not to bring on the vitriolic nastiness to people.  I am being civilized, instead.  I am drinking tea and eating homemade banana bread and blogging. 

So, I have been on another hiatus and didn’t get to say, hey, it was my birthday!  And my blogiversary!  All in one week!  So I will say those things now.

I am so childish about birthdays- I need to be queen for the day and be spoiled rotten, and I spend days before reminding everyone about how, gee, did you know that my birthday is coming?  I don’t care if I’m getting older – I realized that if I keep my act together, I will be thin(ish) and have my BA by the time I’m 30, and what more could a girl want?  BA equals better-paying, hopefully more interesting job.  Thinnish equals the joy of smaller thighs and no belly rolls along with the extreme joy of cute clothes.  30 equals who cares, it’s just a number.  I have two years left and I’m not finding myself freaking out, even though I’ve always sort of thought I would get hysterical at the idea of being so close.  I still feel 16 inside, though, and I doubt that will change much, so I’m not that worried about how old I am outside.  I’m still not grown-up, not really.

Two quick things:

1) Things with E are good right now, I think.  They feel… different than before.  Like there’s progress toward a resolution.  I hate to jinx myself, but there’s a sort of peace that we’ve been missing going on right now, and I’m pretty happy with the direction we seem to be going.  Though I’m still not getting “I love you”s, which is a little heartwrenching.

2) I emailed Holly of Nothing But Bonfires about this post of hers, and OH MY HOLY, she replied to me.  Not only that, but replied like THE NEXT DAY.  So not only did I get my little brush with an awesome celebrity blogger, but she didn’t blow me off for months.  I’m a little bit in awe and a little embarrassed for being so awestruck and excited, but I’m going to keep going with it, because it put a shine on my day to receive her email.

*oh, and the post title is from a Bishop Allen song which I recommend running out to listen to right now.  Though I’m not sure how they are live and can’t see YouTube stuff here at work – (access denied!)