No Admittance

I don’t make friends easily. I am shy, and I hold myself back, aloof and scared - both that they won’t like me and that I won’t like them. I am too judgmental and I worry that everyone else is, too, that they look at me and see everything I know I am lacking. I’ve [...]

My love is bigger than your love (SING IT!)

Stuff I am currently obsessed with:

Burt’s Bees Replenishing lip balm with Pomegranate Oil – it smells kind of like candy and makes your lips vaguely pinker and shiny and feels awesome. I like the minty stuff, too, but sometimes you just can’t deal with all that tingle, and this does nicely.

Curel’s Life Stages: first signs [...]

Spring Fever

I am bored and restless.  The warehouse bay doors are open and the air is pouring in, all fresh and springy and smelling like grass and dirt and sunshine, cool breezes and all things outdoorsy.  I wish I was out there, lying in the grass, soaking up all that sunshine and birdsong; not stuck at [...]

Dear Internet, How I Have Missed Thee!

Dear Internet,
I must confess that I am writing to you while not wearing any underthings. No one is here to care, and I’m sure you don’t mind, but I just wanted to clear the air here. What you also can’t see is that I am in my pajamas post 3-day shower hiatus cleansing [...]

jobs I’d like to have when I grow up

(I’ve been thinking of list after list since reading over at Mighty Girl about her things to do before she dies/things to remember when she dies.)

 

Author.  I’d love to curl up at my laptop all day, drinking endless cups of coffee, pounding out a cheesy romance novel with some hulking, shirtless guy on the cover. [...]

ticker-tape parade in my honor

I have this constant need to be validated, to be cheered on and complimented in everything.  I wonder how much of that is normal human behavior - because who doesn’t like a pat on the back sometimes? - and how much my own neuroses and insecurity.  I want to be applauded for tiny things, like [...]

Things about my new house

1. When we moved in, the weather went like this: rain, sun, rain, sleet, snow, heavy snow, rain, sun. All within a few hours.
2. The floor isn’t really wood, but it looks like wood, and it makes me feel unbelievably happy and cozy.  I grew up with wood floors.
3. The driveway is a muddy [...]

In which I link to myself, madly

I did a new yoga DVD last night, and this morning I feel like someone is thwacking me in the legs and ass with sharp rocks wrapped in plastic - painful in a dull ache sort of way.  I know that means good things for the legs and ass (building and stretching muscle, etc.), but [...]

In which I get mushy

Sometimes there are those things that you can’t let go of.  Past events, things you did, things someone said, moments in time that you wish had never happened or that had gone differently.  Things you know that you should let go of, that you need to drop, that it’s time to move on from.   Learn [...]

Their lives take such strange shapes, but how together they appear from above

Did you ever sort of want to write someone a really threatening letter -  the kind where you tell them you want to gouge out their eyeballs with spoons and then feed them to them, or something in that similar over-the-top mobster-type disgusting vein?  Damn, do I wish I could write a couple of those [...]