My love is bigger than your love (SING IT!)

Stuff I am currently obsessed with:

Burt’s Bees Replenishing lip balm with Pomegranate Oil – it smells kind of like candy and makes your lips vaguely pinker and shiny and feels awesome. I like the minty stuff, too, but sometimes you just can’t deal with all that tingle, and this does nicely.

Curel’s Life Stages: first signs [...]

Birds and bees

I just decided that I’m doing all my Xmas shopping at Etsy this year. Seriously, I’m just sitting here and click click click, gorgeous homemade earrings for my sister! A lavender eye pillow for my mom! Things with skulls and pirates for my son! Cheap, too, and I’m not supporting the [...]

Pinball

I feel like an emotional pinball machine - one minute I’m fine, everything is gonna be okay, life isn’t so bad, really.  The next minute I am a crying pink ball, furiously smoking or wailing to my mother over the phone about how things are just so hard.  And then there is roast chicken for [...]

NaBloPoNOMOREPLEASE!!!

Is it over yet?  I mean, honestly, anyone who is reading this blog still must be so tired of “oh, woe is me, poor me, poor little me” over and over again.  I’m sick of it and I’m the one with the sympathy fetish.  So, in honor of the fact that hearing more about me [...]

What was mistaken for closeness…

We are all basically alone.

Amazing Grace

It’s raining outside, and dark, and the leaves are all being pounded from the trees onto the pavement, making everything even grayer - except the grass, which is so green it looks like Astroturf. I sit with my back to the window and keep turning to look outside, wishing for the rain to stop so [...]

Beautiful Car

My first car was a 1987 Chevrolet Cavalier, dark brown.  His name was Harold, and I loved him with a passion most people reserve for their first boyfriends.  He had a gold velour steering wheel cover, tiger-striped velour seat covers, and so many stickers that you could hardly see the dashboard through them.  I lined [...]

hearts and music and day four!

I wrote a post for today in my Very Cute Notebook last night, lying in bed listening to Neutral Milk Hotel and Josh Rouse and feeling sorry for myself.  And I have spent the day at my mother’s, knitting and shopping with my sister and eating meatballs and doing laundry and generally being nurtured, and [...]

Teenage years, the redux

I’m not growing up, I’m regressing. I am depressed right now because of shit in my life, and I’m not eating enough, I’m smoking again, I’m walking around my neighborhood at night before bed, I’m crying at weird moments. Oddly, it feels sort of good - cathartic. I have that taste in my mouth, the [...]

Damp and crazy and sad

Right now, the air is so damp and warm that my skin feels as if it has an oily layer of moisture over it; the damp so heavy that even though foggy nights here usually smell like salt and tide right now it just smells like parking lot. This despite a thunderstorm today so [...]